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Small Life Update....

...and wanting to share the shit out of this video.

For all those of you who aren't on Facebook I've been very quiet - this has been a good thing, things are going well.

Last Sunday My eldest son, Daniel played at local gig venue The Fleece with his band Third Ace. Not only that but they played their debut original 'Get away' for the first time! Here they are - Dan is the bassist (the one on the right)

Jun. 20th, 2011

Fill Me!

Oct. 5th, 2010

Recently I have mostly been making scones, workign off the excess weight I started putting on over the summer when the clubs shut down for the festival season by (yup, you guessed it..) going clubbing.. Wearing UV Orange and doing stuffs.

there you are Livejournal.. you are all caught up, Have a poll..  :p

Poll #1628099 What three 'Objects' do you associate with me and why? (Things that when you see them I inexplicably pop into your brainmeats.. not to be confused with memories you have of me :p )

First Thing...

Second Thing...

Third Thing...

Anything Else?

Yes, You're Awesome!
Yes, You're Awesome!
Yes, You're Awesome!
Not really... but you are Awesome!
Yes, You're Awesome!

Go on then... Texty box.. not much space in this one, make it count!

Poll #1551534 From Facebook, Private answers for the shy among you :)

One thing you like about me :)

One thing you don't like about me :(

One thing you think I should try :)

One thing I do that you would like to try :)

Anything else to add?

Poll :)

Poll #1548749 Things You Can Do With.... (Part 2)

1 Hairpin...

An Octopus Shaped Ice Cube...

One Eighth of a can of Relentless...

A Spoon...

A Small Scale Model of an M1 Abrams Tank...

50 Characters...

5 Characters...

1 Passion Fruit...

A UV Torch...

And Finally.. An Empty Text Box...


I liked this... I liked it a lot. I think there are people on my Livejournal contacts list who will also like it a lot.
Poll #1502697 I am a lonely text box......

...Oh please won't you fill me with things?

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
Goddesssnoweh goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Alice in Wonderland.
apathyintheuk tricks you! You get a wet rag.
arachne tricks you! You get a 3.5-inch floppy disc.
azekeil gives you 13 yellow blueberry-flavoured jawbreakers.
captainfreckles tricks you! You get a used tissue.
eze gives you 11 green passionfruit-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
fizzybean tricks you! You lose 1 pieces of candy!
kep3_7 gives you 14 yellow peach-flavoured pieces of taffy.
manfalling gives you 17 yellow watermelon-flavoured wafers.
purple_glitter_ tricks you! You get a wet rag.
sarzyness gives you 2 pink strawberry-flavoured gumdrops.
Goddesssnoweh ends up with 56 pieces of candy, a wet rag, a 3.5-inch floppy disc, a used tissue, and a wet rag.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

Poll for your opinions .. :)

Poll #1467336 Halloween Tribe of Frog costume choices...

If I end up with enough money to buy an outfit for Frog's Hallowe'en bash what should it be?

Alice (Like in wonderland.. Appropriate for Tribe of Frog shinannigans)
Snow White (Duh)
The Mad Hatter (See Alice)
Generic Witchy Thing (Boring)

What would be your second choice?

Alice (Like in wonderland.. Appropriate for Tribe of Frog shinannigans)
Snow White (Duh)
The Mad Hatter (See Alice)
Generic Witchy Thing (Boring)

Other costume suggestion..? (These answers may appear in a secondary poll)

Anything you would like to add?

This is the blank box for your randomnesses (So you can use the others for the proper use, innit?)

Whatever Lame-Ass excuse you have for pushing your TROLLEY down my BASKETS ONLY line, I don't care. I WILL make you put it all back in your TROLLEY and take it elsewhere.

Stolen! Shamelessly!

Comment and I will:

1. Tell you why I befriended you.
2. Associate you with something -random, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favourite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ

Poll Question Answer - Part 1

Question: When it comes down to it, do you think that all dance music is essentially the same? Why?


(I understand that this is an entirely personal veiwpoint on an extremely objective subject. This is My Personal answer)

No I don't. Different types of dance music affect me in different ways. Music is a very spiritual thing for me so I will use the Chakras in my explination. This is also the easiest way to illistrate the points I will be making. The type of trance music that most often makes it into the charts is generally vocal trance, which also merges into uplifting trance. Trance music is different to Dance music, which is then again different to House music.

Vocal Trance for me is very heady, very euphoric, on my theoretical diagram i'd place it up with the third eye and throat Chakras. I'm not a massive fan of Vocal Trance, especially on a night out. I prefer rhythms I can dance to, let my inner beings play with.

Psy-Trance. This is the stuff they play at Tribe of Frog. Very psychadelic acidy sounds with very Earthy, driving beats in the background. This music catches me right in my centre. My discovery of Psy-Trance is fairly new and with it developed a new acceptance of who i was, my social identity and personal integrety. This music I place at my Heart Chakra. Right in the ribcage where you can feel the bass thump that spreads like a warm blossom all over.

Hard Dance. This is my favorite. This is what Ripsnorter is famed for. Hard Driving, Relentless beats that burrow right into my Solar Plexus. All about Ego Identitiy, Element of fire, the colour of sunshine. This type of music travels through my 3rd chakra into my 2nd and right down to my Base. Dancing to this my inner fire, devience and wildness come out to play.

I hope this makes sense and answers the question as thouroughly as you hoped it would :)

Subtlety, The American way....


When you get it, you'll shit bricks :p

Can't work out if it's in bad taste or not - it's funny either way though
Poll #1421481 Greasy? Sticky? Ew.....

Would you rather be Greasy or Sticky?


You can use this box to tell me something you think i don't know.

You can use this box to ask me a question which i will answer anonymously in a future post

Anything else?


Write it in here :)


Name 2 things that best describe me using the initials of ur first and second name, then post this in your journal so i can do the same to you :)

Mar. 7th, 2009

An idea has hit me.. Like a steam train..  & i figure there's no better place to try and put matter to my thoughts than LJ-land.

I like to go clubbing.. & i like to take photos while clubbing.. This much you probably know.  You also probably know that i LOVE UV light and the way it excites colours with certain properties.  What i'm hoping you also know is if it's possible to (without going into silly money territory) outfit a camera with a UV (blacklight) flash unit. That is, a flash that flashes ultraviolet light instead of the usual white light.

Geek contigent of my Flist.. I'm counting on you.. GO!


Kudos and cookies for whoever helps me make this a reality.


I've decided that i need to find someone who can spend a bit of time with me and help me asses what skills i have and how i could put them to good use. The problem with me looking for jobs / careers on my own is i have no idea what i'm good at. I need to find something i can do that will appeal to me on a personal level, that i will enjoy, and that i can grow from as a result of doing.  I think i have a range of unusual skillsets, it's just a case of pinning down exactly what they are. If anyone in lj land can help with this i will be most appreciative :D

My 5 things from kotenok

1. Glowy things

My love of light & glowy things is much deeper seated than most people realise, I love light in all forms and am fascinated with it. I think this stemms from the fact that for my whole life i've suffered with something referred to as night blindness meaning, as you may guess, that i just can't see in the dark. It is my sight that also compensates for my lack of hearing, which has also been with me since birth. anything that glows that i can potenially carry around with me is great cos its like carrying a little haven of safety with me :)

I have an extra special relationship with ultraviolet light because it turns objects as simple as a sheet of white paper into a light source in its own right which i find incredable and playing with colours that fluoresce Specifically under UV light can produce amazing results.

2. Bouncy castles.. are great fun ;)

3. Zim

I LOVE the Invader Zim series.. the best character in it *has* to be GIR who i can identify with very easily.. "Hallo floor, Make me a sammich"

4. Short skirts

hahaha, Yes, My clubbing skirts are VERY short

5. Hugs

Mmmm yes please.... can never have too many hugs :D

If you want your own 5 things, leave a comment to this post and I'll give you 5 things I associate with you...then you have to post the list on your own journal and elaborate (comedy descriptions allowed, nay - encouraged!). Also if you have 5 different words for me comment and i'll add them to this post!!

*Bleat fkin bleat* :p

Stolen shamelessly from kotenok .

- Describe me in one word... just one single word. Positive or negative.

- Leave your word in a comment before looking at what words others have used.

- Then copy and paste the meme to your journal to find out how people will describe you when limited to one word.
I stopped my meds sometime around the end of November. I realised i was forgetting them and it didn't matter more and more, so I stopped.

I reached the point where I don't need them any more.

I have a supply, incase it all goes pete tong, which i will keep around untill they expire. more as a security blanket than harbouring any intention of actually using them.

My emotional responses are returning to normal, My perception of the world around me is changing, becoming more real, more tangable.

I'm re learning how to deal with emotions and emotional stress.

I am happy. there are changes going on chemically that i don't fully understand but i have a general grasp on which is helping me manage what is happening to me as the longer lasting effects of the SSRIs wear off. You know me, overanalytical beyond the point where it's helpful to be anymore :)

Facing myself is something i know is going to happen as a result, facing my fears and demons, learning what makes me tick again, because for so long on SSRIs i didn't tick, I was levelled out and blank. This is a process that has already started happening and one that i am comfortable going through.

It's like i'm waking up. The meds provided support when i needed them to and i am at peace with that. I'm not viewing my 'getting off them' as something that should be done, or as a triumph. I needed the meds then and that was ok. Now i am ready to wake up from the sedative sanctuary they offered.

Expect to see more emotion in the few weeks (months..? i dunno) to come. I will be going through a process. It's all good :)

There are things i have to do. Things i have become conscious of that aren't doing me any favours that i have to deal with.

I'm becoming stronger than i ever have been & it feels good.

I love you all :)
"Scientists at the University of Amsterdam have discovered that the drug propranolol, a beta-blocker, prevents the return of unpleasant memories. The finding could lead to a new realm of treatments for patients with posttraumatic stress and other emotional disorders"

I saw the headline on a daily newspaper i was scanning through at work yesterday and in that moment it cut thru all the barriers i had up like they weren't even there & i actually choked up. I managed to skillfully hide it, of course, cos i'm a pro.

I wanted to do a lil poll to find out ppls thoughts about the questions this raises for me. Answers are hidden.
The idea behind this is not that I want someone else to make my mind up for me, rather i would like some different people's opinions to help sort out all the thoughts and emotions I am having that are associated with this. Answers are to be based on the assumption that the testing of Propranolol shows that it does work in the capacity they think it might do.

Please don't be afraid to answer even if you know me a little, All opinions are welcome :)

Poll #1350935 News...

Knowing what you do of me would you say Propranolol would be a viable option to look into?


What is your reasoning for this?

What do you think about the theory that doing this could fundementally alter someone's persona? it could also be that your character is set by past experiances rather than the everyday referral to those memories.

If the application of the drug did have a profound effect on personality & i decided to go for it, What kind of person do you think i'd become?

Would this be a good or bad thing?

This space is for you to fill with any other thoughts or some randomness to keep me entertained :D

Writer's Block: Down on Memory Lane

What is your earliest childhood memory?

Not a nice one :( First thing i remember is being sat down on the floor, i must have been two or something, Mum's partner at the time was a guy called Mike & my memory is of being kicked by him cos i called him Mike not Dad.

Writer's Block: Seven

Which of the seven deadly sins—sloth, greed, lust, gluttony, anger, envy, and pride—are you most likely to commit?
Hahahahahahaha lol *giggle*  All of em, in the same hour lol
You HAVE to watch SOLITARY. It's what you wish big brother was and more :)


I'd like to give a big LJ welcome to vodka_devil !!   Very very good friend of mine, partner in mischiefs and all round troublemaker.  


Question: If you saw me in the back of a police car, what would you assume I'd been arrested for?


It's that time of year again.. Time to drink cake and eat champagne & follow that perpetually late white rabbit.

It's my Birthday!  Woooooo!  Happy my birthday everyone :)   Now, go have fun y'hear?

Broked :(

[EDIT: Broken Link] http://www.shorpy.com/files/images/4a13373u.jpg [EDIT: Broken Link]


As some of you may know already, Orion & I have broken up. It was a mutual decision and we are still communicative and will remain friends.

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