This came about when EzE was clearing out some stuff and found a letter from his school, apologising for fucking up in marking an exam he did, this didn't get rectified till the November after the exams, halfway thru his first term at Bristol uni, the point to this is if his exam had been marked right the first time he would be living in Cambridge now, and we'd never have met ... this set me thinking ...
Soulmates? that's another question (bought up by an episode of friends I just watched) I never believed in soulmates, one person, who is so utterly right for you, when you find them you stop looking, like the desire just disappears. That to me sounded ridiculous, it's human nature that you are on the lookout for potential mates all the time, it's a primitive instinct that keeps the human race going.
Then I met EzE. It wasn't love at first sight by any means, we got to know each other slowly, became mates, them lovers, then close friends (yeah I know, the wrong way round)
We have so much in common it's untrue, and in sharing these things I realised I was falling for him, not in the way that it hits you like a freight train, but in the way you sink onto a plush feather bed. After we sorted out that he felt the same I discovered that I'd stopped looking at other men as potential partners (I still flirt, that is as much a part of me as my lungs are) but I'd lost the desire to find out what other men would be like in bed, or as a partner. to put it bluntly, I'd lost all sexual interest in every other male on the planet. So are we soulmates? were we Destined to meet each other?
or is life like a game of final fantasy? you can do pretty much what you want but there are some parts that are 'scripted' going to happen no matter what. I just know that me and EzE are so right for each other it's quite astounding, we have our moments, but so does everyone. The sheer amount of things that had to happen a certain way for us to meet is incredible. So, are we in total control? Is everything mapped out for us and the only thing we have a choice over is what to wear for it and what to eat for lunch when it comes along? Or are we careering towards parts of life we have no control over, being able to do what we want along the way? It would be nice to hear ppls views on this.