October 6th, 2003


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I'm starting to feel a bit neglected as a submissive again, maybe this is my fault, i don't know. Master doesn't seem to want to test, or train me, seems uninterested in punishing me for disrespect nor reward me for good behaviour.

as a result I'm feeling very, um, well, useless, lost, placeless. Its not a good feeling, even if i can't describe it. It makes me want to kick out against Him, to spark a reaction, but i'm starting to feel there would be little point.

i am at a complete loss as to what to do. :(