April 20th, 2004


brief update...

just to let you all know i've not dropped off the face of the planet...

I've just had a wonderful two weeks looking after Daniel during the day as he was on his easter holidays. i think we both benifited from the time spent together and it did me the world of good :)

My dosage of citalopram has been increased to the mystical 40mg a day. it will be a week on thursday.... things are a bit ... um .... sqiffy at the momment.

i can sleep only when my brain dictates. and when my brain says i'm sleeping I HAVE NO CHOICE in the matter.

I feel myself growing as a submissive, and this makes me happy. There are various options opening up to me for furthering my training with Paul and i'm starting to feel morecontent about the relationship.

We went for a delicious meal with rikrose at TEOHS next to the tobacco factory. Which i'm hoping we can do again really soon

I've requested a full psychiatric evaluation and this time i have been referred [as opposed to what happened last time where i was told that it wouldn't do me any favours and to stop being so silly, and people wonder why i'm afraid to ask for help.] I'm trying desperately not to form any expectaions about what this will turn up. but i am hopeful it will provide a few answers and possable solutions.

I will leave you with something i've no doubt done before, but what the hell, probably no one answered it then anyway [humph!]

01:: Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02:: Am I lovable?
03:: Am I easy to get along with?
04:: Do we have anytthing in common if so what?
05:: How long have you known me?
06:: When and how did we first meet?
07:: What was your first impression?
08:: Do you still think that way about me now?
09:: What do you think my weakness is?
10:: What do you think my strength is?
11:: Do you think I'll get married and to whom?
12:: What makes me happy?
13:: What makes me sad?
14:: What reminds you of me?
15:: If you could give me anything what would it be?
16:: How well do you know me?
17:: When's the last time you saw me?
18:: Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
19:: Do you think I could kill someone?
20:: Describe me in one word.
21:: Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
22:: Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
23:: DO you think I am a good friend?
24:: Do you think I will be a good parent?
25:: Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
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