I found myself somewhere, this weekend, i never thought i'd be again. and all sorts of things happened.
i saw something i never thought exsisted, and was touched deeply by it. I felt a whole lot of regret, some resentment. I can't turn back time and i cant go back in future. they say some things never change, and i'm too afraid of something proving that too right.
after this visit i had to spend the rest of the day reassuring someone close to me that he had nothing to worry about. he was convinced it was written all over our faces that we'd have eachother back in an instant. For me this is not true, but there's one reason only that i can't go back.
i'm a bit torn, still, at the momment, which seems to be a permanant state of being for me, not between the two people, but torn by the sight of an emotion i didn't know existed.